Running In Place

This morning, the doctor told me that they had considered me for a heart that they had found, but in the end they determined that it was not quite suitable enough for me.  I think, for most, this would've been frustrating to hear.  For me, it was actually quite an eye-opener.  It assured me that God really is working and planning something amazing, and it also assured me that I really am at the top of the list and that this could happen soon.  Then again, it could take another month or so.

I have come to believe that I run in my sleep, but I still manage to stay in bed.  The fitted sheets on my bed have a hole that have been worn into them, and every time I wake up in the bed at the hospital, the sheets are mangled and messy.  In reality, however, it was a lot of effort to get nowhere.  I didn't move from point A to point B.  I didn't win a race.  I'm still where I was.

I'm still in ICU, waiting for a heart transplant.  I haven't moved much, and, frankly, nothing I do or say can expedite the process.  If I tried, I'm putting a lot of effort into getting nowhere.  Patience is hard to come by, but God thoroughly desires for us to grow patience.  In the Psalms of the Bible, David consistently teaches us to wait for the Lord, to be patient with the Almighty God of the universe.

Psalm 25:3 "Indeed, none who wait for you shall be put to shame; they shall be ashamed who are wantonly treacherous."

Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the LORD; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the LORD!"

Psalm 37:7 "Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him..."

Psalm 37:34 "Wait for the Lord and keep his way, and he will exalt you to inherit the land; you will look on when the wicked are cut off."

Psalm 62:5 "For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him."

This is one of many things that the Lord has been teaching me during my time here.  I have to stay focused on Him.  I truly am walking through the shadow of the valley of death, and it has been a long and painful journey, but I am assured that He is my strength and my hope and my source of life.  There is no other.

Stay tuned to my blog.  I have some "articles" that I am planning to write and share with all those who read this blog.